[un]predictable

“Life is truly known only to those who suffer, lose, endure adversity and stumble from defeat to defeat.”— Anais Nin

But for me now. My suffering life has yet to come. Everything will change. Start now!

I’m still confused though. It’s too SOON! I’m feeling that my freedom of expression will soon be taken. People might think that I’m not thankful for what I’ve got. While everyone else’s dreaming and willing to pay more to be in my position. But I love what I’m doing now. And the new thing wouldn’t be as “free” as before. It wouldn’t be as fun as before. It would be so much harder. So much pressure.

I’m going to follow the new system. While my rebel side is still on fire. I know.. I know that I have to work more for it. Everything I got here, now, is based on my pain in the ass and I will do it also over there. I just need more time to chill my brain and start to make my heart believe.

Since it’s Eidil Adha time, regarding to Ibrahim’s qurban, maybe it’s also my time to sacrifice such things and start to believe in this new thing. It’s not a big deal, eh? There will be a light that guide me to love this new thing, rite God?

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